Jimmy Carrane Stand-Up

Thank you, Universe

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I am delusional. I usually think that if I want to make more money in the performing arts, I just have to work harder. But the truth is when I do what the Universe wants me to do creatively, the money usually comes in, and usually not how I expect it.

For the last several months, I’d been wanting to write and perform a piece about my dad’s funeral, but I’d been sitting on it out of fear. Out of embarrassment. Out of whole bunch of unresolved trauma.

Anyway, with a lot of help from my friend, Gary Rudoren; my wife, Lauren; and my group therapy, I finally put it up at Louder Than a Mom, one of my favorite storytelling nights in Chicago. And it killed. I am tough critic of my own work, and even I thought it killed. I was so proud of it. I had a performance high for a week. I didn’t get paid, but that’s not why I did it. I did it to try out new material. I did it because it builds my confidence. I did it because it was an investment in myself.

And that creative investment really paid off, because the following week I had six on- camera auditions for parts in TV shows and commercials. Six! Then out of nowhere, my agent e-mailed me asking if I was available to shoot a commercial on Tuesday. “Of course, yes, I am available,” I wrote back. This was a commercial that I hadn’t even auditioned for! And guess what? I got it off an old headshot.

Was all of this just a coincidence, or was it directly related to me putting up my piece about my dad’s funeral?

Lauren kept saying it was “dumb luck” that I got the commercial. I don’t see it that way.

I have seen this happen time and time again — when I put effort into something that fills me up creatively and let go of “trying” to make money, the money comes. The problem is I keep forgetting it. I keep losing faith because I am too busy trying to control or predict the outcome.

I had put myself out there with my piece and then I showed up to all those auditions —some of them I even showed up to early — and the Universe took me seriously because I took myself seriously. Even if it was only for two weeks, it was working.

Of course this is easy to say in hindsight. It’s totally different when you are in the thick of it, schlepping back and forth from auditions and getting frustrated trying to figure out why you are not getting cast.

As you know, I have many talents, and telling stories is just one of them. It’s the one I struggle the hardest with because it’s the one where I am the most vulnerable, but it is also the one right now that is bringing me the most rewards, even if I cannot always see them immediately.

Want the Universe to open things up for you? Focus on your art in Jimmy’s next Two-Person Scene Tune-Up, happening Dec. 30. Only $79 if you register by Dec. 14!

12 replies
  1. Rick B.
    Rick B. says:

    I thoroughly enjoy reading the Jimmy Carrane blogs. The honest way in which you express yourself is yet another example of your artistry. I look forward to reading the next one.

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  2. Sarah Savage
    Sarah Savage says:

    Congratulations, Jimmy. You’ve always been a very hard working talent and it’s an inspiration every time I work with you.

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  3. Erica
    Erica says:

    Yes, the Universe always brings back to us what we give, with the same energy in which we give it. It may not be exactly how or when we expect it, but it always always ALWAYS finds some way to balance things out in a way that is right for us. Your gift of honest story telling + courage, authenticity = a paying commercial. It came back to you where you need and appreciate it – in the form of doing what you love (art in the form of a commercial) AND money (money). Awesome inspiration, Jimmy!

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